Everyone is caught up
in their own little world..




including me.

Apartment Hunting.

As usual, i seem to find ways to
screw everything up. But I suppose
this time it's not too bad.. just unplanned.
As it's nearly the 1st of march, I've figured/found
my roommates for next year [which will be def. both Erin
and Maddy].
We've decided that we want to live around the division blue line
stop over in wicker park preferably by Michael and Kevin B.
We're planning to go down to chicago apartment finders office
in blemont this saturday to meet with them and begin the process
of finding a place.
The goal is to move out in the last few weeks of school
into our new place so that we won't be forced to do it all in one
day or to be forced to find storage for a period of time.

All in all I'm looking forward to it.
Both erin and maddy are super nice
and I'll be able to get along/live with them
really well. :]
It helps also that i've got a ton of things
to decorate our [future] apartment with. should
be super nice.

Am I really all
the things that are
outside of me?

It seems like in my
circle of friends, talk of protest
and resistance have come up more and more.
They always say that the media learned not to show
the dead [and like images] on television. That it creates
anti-war sediments. I'd say that they also learned not to cover
stories about anti-war & civil rights movements.

I'm tired of my generation
getting shit from the previous ones
saying that we're complacent... that we do nothing.
The problem isn't that we don't care and that we do nothing,
the problem is that we do things and it simply isn't covered.
(examples: a man burned himself alive in the middle of a street in
chicago last year in protest of the iraq war, all ports along the west coast were
shut down on May Day last year in protest of the iraq war, the demonstrations/police riot
at the RNC this past year in St. Paul; all not covered.)

When you begin to realize that the
flow of news and media that you get via
main stream media sources all come from 2 to 3
sources, you have to wonder what the hell are you being fed.
More often than not the average consumer takes in these different
forms of news not questioning anything about them. Not weather what they're
hearing is true or not or weather there is an agenda behind what they're hearing or
why it is that they are hearing THESE stories rather than others.

I never questioned it
until last year and it's not until
this year that I'm even doing anything about it.
I'm choosing now to get my news from alternative outlets
rather than simply turning to mainstream media.


Speaking of which there's
an anti-war and immigration rights coalition
rally/protest on march 14th. I will be there.

Exedra and things like that.

Breath in the cool eastern air
while facing west. Walk a mile in the
the shoes of the boy you bullied in elementary school.

Life in Bernankeville.

The torn flag flutters in the breeze
reflecting the state of the nation.
Below on Michigan avenue the multitudes
of cars decrease as the number of
tattered women and men take to the streets in droves.
Their clumsily written signs are words written for helpless eyes.
The once beautiful copper siding on the skyscrapers are tarnished.

Bridges were built
to bring the people jobs
but were quickly made their homes.
The frigid waters of Lake Michigan serve
as the bath water for millions. The sky is brown
with the dirt of the dust bowl quickly forming in the southern
planes of america. In the streets wild animals run free.


Chicago, 2013

Come Join the Youth and Beauty Brigade.

<sup>"The only constant thing is change"
A truer quote, I've never heard. From week to
week I change my plans for life. Although people say,
"you're only 20, you don't need to know what you're going to do
with your life." I always like to know plans so that I can have a map
in my mind for the direction I want to go with my life.

In this case I've taken a turn
that's lead my right back to the decision that
I had made towards the end of last semester:
Major in photography, work on sets outside of
class. The reasons for which I have chosen to come back
around to this direction have changed though. Before
it was out of strict frustration and rebellion. Now
the decision comes from the knowlage that despite all
the b.s. that I have to go through to do photo, I will still never
find anything else that I enjoy more. I am a photographer and will
always be a photographer before I'm a filmmaker.

With that being said, as of right now
I feel like i've gone 14 days with out any weekend
to be seen. Never the less so far it's been good the past
two weeks although stressful. Shooting constantly, printing constantly.



I've been doing some shoots while
hanging out with friends this past week too.
Got a few more to shoot that they've got playing around
in their minds as well. Should be pretty funny/ridiculous.



In this past week Micheal introduced me
to his sister, a website called fecal face, and an artist/photographer
who goes by the name SwampDonkey... and they're all pretty great
I must say.</sup>







One last thing: Jaydiohead, I dig it. :]